I must paint my way out of this Waking Dream - 05/27/2009

Posted by Natiq Jalil on Monday, June 13, 2011 Under: Retro blogs

  It is now the first thing in the morning for me, and I really don't want to be awake right now, to be honest. But at the same time, I don't want to be asleep, either.

     I think that today is a day that I need to paint something. I don't know what it is, but I'm sure that if nothing else, something will get painted today. It has been forever since I've completed any traditional work, and honestly, I really don't feel quite like myself, lately. Don't get me wrong, digital work is great and exciting. I am so glad to be able to do it. But I find that I am missing the feel of my paintbrushes and the texture of the canvas, and the excitement caused from knowing that there is no "undo" button. So, if fate permits, I will actually complete a traditional piece today. I have about 7 unfinished traditional pieces laying around. Its sad really.

     Not many people know this yet, but I guess that whoever reads this blog will now know something more of me. Since I was a little kid, I've had very disturbing dreams. It got to the point where used to be afraid to go to bed. Eventually, I started to use my art as a way to cope with the dreams. My first "I have to paint something" moments were born from this. As was my life's work, Darkholme's Paradise. Needless to say, I haven't been sleeping well lately and my days feel more and more like waking dreams.

     So today, I will paint. I can't promise that what I produce will be beautiful or anything like that. But the weight of my dreams is pressing down on me and I need the creative release. So I will paint. And we will see what happens.

     Oh yeah, this is the latest poster art from DP. This is Meta4. He is my favorite of all the characters I've created (probably the most tortured too. He's an artist, also). Feel free to let me know what you think.


Ok. Goodbye for know.




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